ikolam (maloki backwards) @iko@writing.exchange

I published a $2 tier for poetry on my patreon!

With a poem attached to this post:

https://www.patreon.com/posts/25150398

https://www.patreon.com/join/maloki/checkout?rid=3387958

#Poetry #AmWriting #Patreon #TwoDollarPatreon

Published a small blog post about my Creative Writing Project for this spring.

Poetry, about my grandmother

https://blogghoran.se/2019/02/05/farmor-stories-untold/

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Hi writing.exchange! This will be the writing musing account of @maloki

I'll be writing about writing, and musing about poetry, as I'm crash coursing into it.

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I think my WordPress just accidentally lost words, and I don't remember which words and there's no way to retrieve it because phone app, no undo buttons when you accidentally mark something and then delete / write over it 🤔

Sometimes you just need to sit down with a timer, and make conscious effort to move a piece of text forward

I'm sensing a recurring theme here.
My sense of time is so fucked up, that if I do a few things, that'd usually take me weeks to accomplish, I end up finding myself feeling like that much time has passed, even if I know that it's only been days (logically).

There's a current glitch between my logical/rational, and my senses. My feelings about time are so skewed right now, and it's a bit scary, because what if I push all my friends away by wanting to spend TOO MUCH

Me, still very much hyper social: Hey bestie, what's up, wanna go to x today?
Bestie: Nah, not right now, I think I need to take care of me for a bit.
Me: cool I get it.
Me, next day: hey bestie, wanna come do that x thing which is today as well?
Bestie: sorry, still need alone time.
Me, the day after: So what about Toniiiight ? Last chance, I think you'll love it.
Bestie: ...
Me: ...
Me: oh, hyper social here, hi sorry.
Bestie: I'll let you know when we can hang.

Me, while hyper-social: I think sufficient time has passed to check in with x person.

Them: You seem to want to be more friends with me than I with you. *backs away slowly*

Me: Hmmm.....

Me 3 days later: OH, it's not even been a week since the FIRST time we saw each other, and I asked you 3 times in 4 days. How was that not even 3 weeks?!

My logical mind: Because not more than 4 nights passed.
My time-sense braiN: but we did as much stuff as we'd do in months
🤷

Me, while hyper social: I don't see my peeps often enough.

My peeps: You saw me yesterday.

Me, still hypersocial: I can't for the life of me understand why they don't want to hang out.

I think I'm going to get into Poetry Slam stuff.

I feel very inspired.

Is there any other instance for scholars than scholar.social ?

I'm asking because I just want to see what alternatives there are, not because I think scholar.social is bad!

when you write exhausted
slowly
one letter at the time,
tapping on your keyboard.

when people read it
they wont see it,

unless i add space
e x h a u s t e d

it's not the same.
it does not portray the feeling
of writing

e
x
h
a
u
s
t
e
d

one letter
at the time.

I've not been able to write lately. Unsure why.

I guess I should get back into it. Maybe check out if my laptop works still, and then bring it to my mom's when I go there.

Editing this poetry has me in tears, which is good.

Because I feel like I may've revealed stuff to me that stings and hurts.

"No surprise to the author, no surprise to the reader" ...

I tend to not be able to listen to music with lyrics when studying. but today I'm listening to Hamilton, which I began listening to in the past few days.

As it's not the first time I listen to it, I'm just using the pace to get me going, which is interesting.

The lyrics aren't distracting for once. Yey!

Learning about syllabic weight, rather than stressed unstressed, is incredibly helpful to me.

It will be so much easier to read for rhythm now!!

Now I'm asking myself, was this part of the poetry studies I've done in the past, did I just not pay attention?

I know we talked about the meter, but never in these words before.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Syllable_weight#Classical_poetry

I'm looking at utilizing some of the Kalevala rhyme scheme, as it is the Epic poem of the Finns, which will fit well with this story of my grandmother.

Going to have a lot of fun.

Serious writing question.

If you publish a paper, and later change your name, can you like get that shit changed? :D

I published a $2 tier for poetry on my patreon!

With a poem attached to this post:

https://www.patreon.com/posts/25150398

https://www.patreon.com/join/maloki/checkout?rid=3387958

#Poetry #AmWriting #Patreon #TwoDollarPatreon