It took me over a decade to realize I was disabled.
Internalized ableism is no joke. It can lead us to push our bodies and deny our reality.
I was a sickly child my whole life - but we didn’t discover the reasons until I turned 30. It was validating to finally have answers. A name for my conditions, explanations for why I never felt well & why my body couldn’t do what other people could.
Despite my now having validation and multiple diagnoses of chronic illness and disability - I didn’t identify as disabled. I was still working, still supporting myself…
So surely that meant I wasn’t right? I was scared of what it would mean if I said I was disabled.
Would people judge me? Think less of me? Would my non disabled friends distance themselves and would disabled people think I wasn’t “disabled enough”? I recognize now these were questions that were mainly due to my own internalized ableism.
I was worried about these things
because I didn’t understand dynamic disability.
I was also grieving my health. Even though I was sick before the diagnosis - once they had a name and no cure I had to come to terms with the fact that I was never going to get better.
I was likely the most functional I would ever be - and would probably lose function as I aged. That reality hit me like a ton of bricks and it took me a long time to reach a point of acceptance.
An injury followed by a viral infection took my remaining function away from me and left me completely housebound.
It wasn’t until a caring and compassionate doctor explained the concept of dynamic disability that I realized I WAS disabled and that I had been for many years.
This good doctor encouraged me to write about my experiences to help others - and while it took me time to become confident enough to speak out - I’m so glad I did.
The fact that I had so much fear of judgement, so much difficulty accepting reality only served to show me why we need more disability advocates. We need people telling their stories. It helps with acceptance of chronic illness & educates others on dynamic disability
If Covid has taught us anything it’s that a large number of people still see the disabled as “expendable”.
How many times have we heard “Covid is mild unless you have pre-existing conditions”. This has been the party line for the entire pandemic
Many folks don’t realize that it’s rooted in ableism. To say it’s only dangerous for those who are already sick is to say that we don’t matter. That killing or maiming us is acceptable as long as the non disabled can continue to live life as though we’ve gone back to 2019
As a result many disabled and high risk individuals have been isolating for five years. Have been quietly exited from society to protect themselves. We started to re-enter the world when high quality respirators became easily available - but even that is problematic
We get bullied from the “covid is over” crowd. They want us at home. They want us to not exist. Because we are a constant reminder of their own mortality and the fact that they are risking disability every time they get a Covid infection.
But here’s the incredible thing I’ve seen happen in the last few years. The disability community are organizing. They may be isolated at home but they’ve found community online. They’ve galvanized around inspiring leaders with strong voices and are creating a movement.
Not just for Covid caution & Long Covid but for the rights of disabled people across the world. For better access to healthcare, more inclusion and recognition of diversity and minority groups. Hashtags, campaigns and artwork have started taking off. We are getting louder
Activism is more important now than ever before, as we face existential threats due to the changing political landscape.
It’s a powerful moment for intersectionality. All of us who are marginalized can and should be working together to bring about change
It’s a scary time, but I have hope whenever I see people speaking out. Sharing stories. Refusing to go gently.
I’m glad to have finally stepped up and found my voice - and I hope that by sharing my story I play a small role in making the world safer
If you’re disabled or chronically ill (or even if you aren’t sure) and you’re afraid to speak up - please don’t be. Speak up. Reach out. Share your story. There’s an incredible community waiting for you and we will lift you up and help you find your voice.
Activism is important right now, but so is pacing. We must work to save our spoons amidst the torrent of bad news & stress we’re inundated with.
“We are a community. We carry each other through the tough times. Our love and support knows no borders, so when a group of us are hurting we all hurt”
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![Chart: Estimated U.S. Variant Proportions by Common Name
Sources: Centers for Disease Control, CoV-Lineages, NYITCOM Research, Daniele Focosi, World Health Network, others
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Reskin of CDC's Variants Nowcast, and any significant variants in GISAID not broken out by CDC.
Five bar-style tree-charts, for fortnights through March 16–29. Legend of last fortnight, organized by subheadings of color-grouped families and convergent clusters. Percentages overlay each color key, reflecting share as of most recent tree-chart.
Essentially all WHO-Vaccine-Target JN.1. LP.8.1 accounts for well over half; JN.1 + FLiRT for over a quarter.
For fortnight of 3/2–3/15, packed bubble charts fill single-variant tiles, indicating diversification of those variants (per GISAID) that wouldn't otherwise be apparent from CDC's Nowcast.
Legend:
LP.8.1 [purple]:
55% - LP.8.1.1 / NY† & other LP.8.1
XEC [browns]:
21% - XEC.2† & other XEC
2% - XEC.4
JN.1.11 + FLuQE [greens]:
6% - MC.10.1 & MC.19
3% - MC.28.1
2% - XEQ
4% - MC.1 & other KP.3.1.1 / MC
⅘% - other KP.3
JN.1 + FLiRT [reds]:
4% - LF.7
2% - LB.1.3.1 / NL
JN.1.11 + FLiRT [blues]:
½% - XEK
0% - KP.2.3 & KP.1.1.3 / LP
Other [greys]:
⅖% - JN.1.16
⅙% - other WHO-Vaccine-Target JN.1
0% - Other (not specified)
† Dagger variants are not broken out by CDC, yet represent a significant share of recent GISAID sequences.](https://spaces.hcommons.social/media_attachments/files/114/259/915/273/763/471/original/d43e9777e86ef6a8.jpg "Chart: Estimated U.S. Variant Proportions by Common Name
Sources: Centers for Disease Control, CoV-Lineages, NYITCOM Research, Daniele Focosi, World Health Network, others
[ beadsland on Ko-fi ]
Reskin of CDC's Variants Nowcast, and any significant variants in GISAID not broken out by CDC.
Five bar-style tree-charts, for fortnights through March 16–29. Legend of last fortnight, organized by subheadings of color-grouped families and convergent clusters. Percentages overlay each color key, reflecting share as of most recent tree-chart.
Essentially all WHO-Vaccine-Target JN.1. LP.8.1 accounts for well over half; JN.1 + FLiRT for over a quarter.
For fortnight of 3/2–3/15, packed bubble charts fill single-variant tiles, indicating diversification of those variants (per GISAID) that wouldn't otherwise be apparent from CDC's Nowcast.
Legend:
LP.8.1 [purple]:
55% - LP.8.1.1 / NY† & other LP.8.1
XEC [browns]:
21% - XEC.2† & other XEC
2% - XEC.4
JN.1.11 + FLuQE [greens]:
6% - MC.10.1 & MC.19
3% - MC.28.1
2% - XEQ
4% - MC.1 & other KP.3.1.1 / MC
⅘% - other KP.3
JN.1 + FLiRT [reds]:
4% - LF.7
2% - LB.1.3.1 / NL
JN.1.11 + FLiRT [blues]:
½% - XEK
0% - KP.2.3 & KP.1.1.3 / LP
Other [greys]:
⅖% - JN.1.16
⅙% - other WHO-Vaccine-Target JN.1
0% - Other (not specified)
† Dagger variants are not broken out by CDC, yet represent a significant share of recent GISAID sequences.")
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AUSTRALIA Weekly COVID Update: 28 March 2025
If you can’t make it it will be on their YouTube afterwards. 