One little addendum note is that the effects of guanfacine may finally be helping me have comfort to say I feel angry about this. I feel angry at how oblivious and insistent neurotypicals are in their thinking that if autists only followed neurotypical advice, we wouldn't be afflicted in the ways we are.
Neurotypicals, in general, have very little real empathy and compassion towards autists and their lives. They are okay with us dying early and many of us dying because of suicide.
Be angry.