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#ocd

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I keep breaking shit. Literally and metaphorically. And then I want to feel better, so I run to some other shit. And then I break that too because I'm impatient and distracted by my feelings of loss from the last thing.

I'm trying to escape this cycle with video games (possibility of success without possibility of meaningful failure)... but Veilguard is making it hard to give a shit.

My OCD is flaring up.
I listed some technical books on eBay 4 months ago and one finally sold in the early hours.
I've just packed it and now I want to open the parcel again to check there is nothing inside the book, e.g. a piece of notepaper.

I know I checked it before listing it on eBay last year, so there can't be anything inside. But I'm struggling to fight the urge to check, which would cause a lot of work packing it up again.

I mean, this is funny.. but also I spent my therapy session last week talking about how I think WW3 has already started.. so...

Also finding a psychologist who deals with me as an Aboriginal person living under settler colonialism has been ground breaking for my mental health. Definitely recommend.

#audhd#autism#adhd

New instance so new intro post time:

Hi! I'm Jack (they/them). I'm a nonbinary sociology nerd with a bunch of disabilities, a bunch of tattoos, and a degree in queer research/education/history.

I mostly post about things relating to queerness, disability/mental illness, neurodivergency, and my wonderful little family (which consists of my absurdly sweet butch wife, two adorable dogs, and sassy super senior cat).

I'm always happy to find new people to interact with/befriend/add to my community on here!

and... I have *still* not found a way to end an intro post that doesn’t feel super awkward so I'm just stick with having these tiny queer cats dance me out :blobCat_party:​ :blobCat_party:​ :blobCat_party:​

:boost_ok:​

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Before I learned how to manage my #OCD tendencies better -> I'd avoid visiting anyone's homes when under heavy OCD kicks. I wasn't able to stop myself from trying to clean & organize other people's homes. I had a severe tendency to clean/organize everything, anywhere I went, when hard OCD kicks came in. In past, I've gone out & organized multiple little free libraries, in alphabetical orders, cleaned up 6 sheds that are not mine, folded laundry that wasn't mine or my family's for 4 hours, sorted whites from colours at laundromats(from baskets that weren't mine), organized items at grocery stores when they weren't all lined up properly, fixed messy posters on public bulletin boards....to name a few things that I no longer do.

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Due to my #ADHD - I sometimes let messes pile up for a short time & then #OCD kicks in hard. This happens more often when I'm very stressed out & am feeling burned out. I will clean all day & night, until things are 'perfect' for me. I'll likely be up until middle of the night today, cleaning & organizing.

I tend to do 1-2 hour spurts of intense cleaning/organizing with several food & body stretching breaks in between. This is how I've learned to manage myself when my OCD kicks in hard. Before learning how to manage myself better, I'd go full tilt with cleaning & organizing for hours without eating. That was not good for my well-being. So, I spent a lot of time learning how to do things a bit differently so I don't burn myself out in one day with my OCD kicks.

I don't work again til Friday so it's OK if I don't get to sleep until almost morning.

today with the help of some new elastic clips, i redid the fabric covers on our sofa. i am trying out using a set each of 2 long elastics and 4 short ones for both the seat and backrest. wonder how long the strips will retain their stretch for, and whether the covers will continue looking neat? :p